Angel and Devil

Choice and bla bla bla

2009-01-09T23:41:00.009+08:00

i have 2 choice to choose, first is continue my degree second is to bcome a stewardess. i am so headache think about it. become a stewardess is my dream but degree is a level of myself, ofcouse degree is more important and can always meet with my boy friend. heee... but become stewardess of etihad airways is a good opportunity for me and salary is more higher.. heeee... :p

haiz... later just make a decision, need to discuss with him ofcouse.. :)

Next week is my register day for the last sem ( sem 6 ), ow god, study again... need to struggle again.. my result of sem 5 dropped, i never regret to get that result la..... cz i really struggle not to give up and satisfied of that.. hahahaha.. :)

Relaxing

2008-12-24T15:59:00.004+08:00

WOW... finally finished my final exam, im freedom now..
but im still worry about the result, because on this subject, i am too confident that was the answer, but not suppose to be that. im still hoping i can get A on that subject
(Can i? u know how many mark tat i have loose? 16 per 100!)
i have succefully control my diet, im glad about that... suffer to control it, but im glad that i can go through of it..

what i want to do on this holiday.. working? impossible.. Hurm
still have 1 sem to go then huray!! finish my diploma..
where i want to take my dgree? still not sure yet..
Muet result? hope i can get 3 pointer n above.

Many things that had changed

2008-08-21T12:24:00.002+08:00

After i started my study by july..
i have no time to came here to drop down a comment!
Now because i miss my blog, n too many things that had happen in 1 month.

Erm, until now i had spend too much expenses ( in 1 month )..
i do not know where i spend of..
i just feel i lose the money at somewhere place( konon )..
i think the money left is not enough for me to survive for next 5 month,
i am sure not enough.. haiz.. tension! need from my father againt..
Now i have to more save... adoi...

i think i have a new life, all have changed because of him...
i have to be more relax and appreciate of everything...
i am happy now..

i just bought a new hp not more than 1 month, after the hp damaged!!
argh.. i can't use it for 1 week, i am suffer of it..
Lose contact with everybody!
do not know what is the time, today is what day n date..
coooollll.... ( Just be patien la.. )

2 weeks of holiday, i stay at labuan.. ( konon jimat la )
My life at here still simple ' eat, sleep, watch tv, on9, go for a walk '
though on diet, but still the same! haiz...
but i have sucessfull diet 2kg, still ok rather then keep on fatter..
hope in this 2 week, i can control of it..
Back to study just keep on diet.. hahahaha

first day of registration

2008-07-13T17:27:00.003+08:00

Tommoro is my first day starting my classes.. i hate to back to my class!~~~
if i saw that monster, i will moody!!! can not concentrate my study..
feel wana to kill that shit monster!!
really tired of the day that i had to register, paid fees, and managed my hostel!
i am busy to manage all of that in 1 day! tired!
but still ok, i can meet my friendsss..
when i met my friends and lecture, all of them said i am fat!!!
agrrrrrrrr.....
tension, by now i cant eat too much like before!
hopefully i can keep on it...
wish me to keep on it yar!!!
hahahahaha..
all of my friends have changing a lot...
hahahahaha...
wana out now...
no enought time to write to much...
bye....

i am sick

2008-07-08T10:47:00.005+08:00

sick for 1 week..

so suffer of it..

do not have change to enjoy,

i am now at upm selangor,

waiting for my cousin finish her class,

while waiting, so i drop a post here!

tomorro going back to kk,

lazy wana to back there!

still have a lot of things that i haven't buy!

i thought have mega sales here,

but still the same!

mega sales is on august! not july,

so dissopointed i cant join the mega sales!

but the good thing is i can save my money!

i love their character.. :)

All Done

2008-07-02T10:19:00.002+08:00

i miss my family,
back to kl by today,
miss them so much,
but,
i miss here too,
gain a lot of new experience here,
many problems here,
but still have a lots fun of the problems,
hahaha..
so life not so bored..

9 july back to kk againt,
continue my study(1 more left),
i miss my friends there,
but i hate to see someone else,
hate!!!
regret be friend with that fellow,
nevermind,
thank god shows me the truth!

feel relax,
i had settle all of my assignment,
enjoy my time,
hurayyy!!!
wana to shopping, ofcause!!
for half year not shopping,
pity of myself!

missing...
i miss my hometown,
hopefully one day i can back there and visit there,
miss my old friends,
miss my life there,
miss a wonderful time there,
have fun with friends,
no problems,
no argue,
quarel ofcause!!
How are they now?
How are they look like now?
thin?
fat?
success?
tall?
marry?
hehehehehe

ReALise

2008-06-27T10:01:00.005+08:00

i never think i had do the wrong,
but now i realise, i had!
i have done a big mistake,
mistake i am not explain everything,
and i just wana to help people,
but they never realise,
they will only said all was my fault,
now i understand,
and i was regret!

Now i can said we can not 100% trust people,
even lover or friends,
cause i just realise,
and i saw and heard it!
then i learned,
however we said the truth,
no one will believe it..

Ooo God,
you are only one know what is going on,
you give me a change to see,
how they get their consideration for what had they done,
and me too..
then i realise, you are very powerfull!

now i realise what is going on here,
i learned from mistake,
i am not perfect,
thank god and my friends that had supporting me,
i will try my best to change all the mistake..

Challenging Day

2008-06-26T14:43:00.006+08:00

i am so stupid..
i just realise that!
i am regret to tell
my feeling,
my story,
what is going on..
u have two choice to believe,
but you prefer choice another way,
choice a way that he/she doesn't no,
they believe that,
and not believe that what had happen to you,
i just wana to tell what is my real feeling,
but for others,
that is a blame and abuse,
tell our feeling is a natural affair..
all of us will...
that is not nasty affair..

i am really sincere tell my feeling to you,
i believe on you,
sincere be friend with you,
i just wana to tell you what is my real feeling,
but you take advantage on me,
why...
i really dissopointed,
really,
really,
really,
why...
please tell me why!
i never think negative about you,
i really appreaciated that you are my friend!!
im glade to have you,
but,
why...
why...
i never bad with you!!
why..
why..
why..
infornt of you, i feel i am played by you!
u choose to believe him,
i am not curious,
because i know,
this will happen,
because for all,
i am a bad fellow,
they are true of everything..

why god!!!
tell me,
you are the only one knows everything,
you know i am not perfect,
but why..
if i do not make the mistake,
the person will said was me!!
why!!
why!!!
why!!!!
when i was primary school until now!
they would say i done it!!
why..
how i want to make them to believe me?
please give me perseverance go through of this....
please god!
All of that were a nightmare for me,
i am not easily to forget all of this,
will save in my mind,
please help me god..
i need you, always!!
never forget about you..

LOVER

2008-06-25T15:49:00.003+08:00

Lover?
im so confused,
i hated to have a serious relationship,
its just put me in trobble,
crying,
sadness,
dissapointed,
fool,
ahhhhhhh......
BUt,
sometime it's sweet,
happy all the time,
gorgeous,
he is the only one,
he is the only one that u can hope for help..
he is a part of me,
But when you are in a relationship,
what others think about you,
rumous is everywhere,
rejected by family because
he is too old for u,
he is too young for u,
he do not have any future!
im so confused,
what should i do,
i feel lonely,
i wana to get marry,
i wana care by him,
i wana accompony by him,
goshhhhh...
what is going on with me..
who should i looking for?
i do not dare to tell anybody about my story,
what they will think about all of this!!!
no ones knew it..................................

SaD MaTteR

2008-06-19T19:22:00.004+08:00

Today is my day(driving text).. i am not ready for this, because i always forget about the text! firstly i am very happy because i had pass in the road( Hill, parking and the 3 junction).. but when on d road, i feel nervous and forgot all the tutor that had teach me before.. Unfortunately i had make mistake! ow, such a bad day today! Apparently i need to pay and text againt!

HOHOHOH!!! i must pass by next thursday, because by d end of june, i will back to kl.. i have no time to take againt! Well, although i failed, but this failure giving me an instruction and i have learned from the mistake! Hope i will not do the same mistake againt! All together, i had spend 1600++(almost 1700).. ow, such a big price yeah! Sorry MOM, DAD.. i know u guys feel disappointed! Erm, please forget all this ok, be happy yar! Love u guys.. :)

Oh my good! Weather really scorching today, i am sweating all day!! And sunbathing too.. that's ok, not always too... WAHAHAHA...

Lazy Girl

2008-06-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

hey, u know what.. i really lazy wana to post any comment here despite i have nothing to do all the time! feel really bored too... Every day chatting and dreaming!! hahaha.. not always! don't worry! Every day after i am finished my work, then i will back home, just watching tv o movies that i had searching from the internet! i am a person who is not interest to read newspaper, but i always force myself to read it! (sometime, not every day) Apparently i need to change the bad habit! haha.. Now in process!

today, im blogging a website, i really fall in love with d blog(The Sartorialist).. i really enjoyed reading it! But im still not finished reading all.. haha.. i love d way d models dressed and the background too!! hahaha.. But d problem is the style seen like suitable for the white fellow!! can i wear like that at Malaysian? Some can, some can't! but the problem is where can i wear like that! U wan to know why? becauseee my body type not the perfect as model! huhu.. they are too thin! i think they less eating! And i love eating and really enjoy eating!! but still can control not be fat.. i think im not thin and not fat.. hahahaha!! Maybe...

I feel sleepy rite now, wana to sleep! Good night guys...

Just like a PRO

2008-06-08T13:29:00.004+08:00

"i love this article, this article that i had read from CLEO magazine..
i wana share with all my friends.."

THOU SHALT...

be at work during working hours. try not to stroll in late, go for retail therapy after lunch or scoot off early to meet your boyfriend.

Start on assingnments immediately and not delay till the very last minute.

Dress for success. you don't need a wardrobe that resembles the ladies department at the store - just look well-groomed and appropriately dressed.

leave your moods at home. avoud PMS tantrums and the like. always be cool-headed and businesslike

be dependable. keep ypur promises and carry out your duties.

be a reassuring presence. speak knowledgeably, work quietly and well

Not expliut your femininity. although you can get your way this way, don't -it's sneaky

be above reproach. don't even pinch the office teabags.

not be overcome. bounce back from criticism or failure

find a way. if a problem occurs, don't just stand there, quickly think of something!

jAIL iN Austria

2008-06-06T14:13:00.009+08:00

Oh my god!!!

they are too enjoy and lucky to have that!

their life in jail are too comfortable!

they do not deserve that..

if like this, villain must be increase in this world to get in there..

FEEL BETTER AFTER BACK FROM KK

2008-06-02T10:08:00.007+08:00

i feel great after i had back frm kk.. eventually im nw become a happy and active fellow.. no more tension.. im feel like im bcome a new person after i changed my old image to a new different look, feel like i just born.. hahaha.. today still working, nearly finish my asgment.. huray!!!! still have 1 month left, i can meet my family.

i need to control not buy clothers and others cause mega sales is coming soon, must spend as many as i can!! wahahaha!! must be scold by mom, i know tat! nevermind, thats good too.. hahaha.. my sis not in kl, she cant accompany me!! i cant go out by myself, cause i never been there bfore, dono who can accompany me there!! huhu..

not much i ned to spend at kk, below 200(i think so). only going to cp bcause i wan to watch movie, nearly half year not watch movies, cause at labuan no place to watch(boring tau!!), my cousin and i planing watch d kungfu panda, v though d movies nw is playing in d cinema but.. huhu.. Apparently v need to watch others movie, so v plan watch Indiana Jones and The Kingdom. Hey guys!! this movie is a little silly, some what cheesy, more than a little incredulous, but also a whole lot of fun to watch. Funny and some crazy action that u will not imagine to!!

Ohhh, and bfore i forget, remember at all times - its Indiana Jones. So just sit back, switch off the the logical side of your mind, bring along a healthy dose of nostalgia, and just enjoy yourself, for goodness sake.

Wow... they nathing to do ka.. hahahah..

2008-05-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

someone had a lot of time for this circle.

i dono wat for they done like tat..

but i think they were creative..

haha..

Plz read this Girls!

2008-05-28T13:31:00.006+08:00

All women are vulnerable to rape, not just schoolgirls..

From young, our parents, teachers, and friends teach us that we have choices about ourlives and that we're responsible for what happens to us. we frequently hear that if you are beaten, you're said to have incited it, and that if were raped you're said to have invited it.

we have to start discussing about who rapes. who is that somebody? why do men rape women? and how do you stop them?

very few rapes involve provocative dressing on the part of the victim. in fact, i would say that convicted rapists do not remember what their victims were wearing (tats wat im read in a newspaper).

it is a myth that rape only happens to young, beautiful women who dress provocatively. all women are vulnerable to rape, regardless of age, race, class, education or physical appearance.

so dont forget if u wan going to anywhere, plz bring some1 to accompany u.. thats more safety!!

Amish's Airlines - Lets fly!!

2008-05-26T16:38:00.002+08:00

An airliner was having engine trouble, and the pilot instructed the cabin crew to have the passengers take their seats and get prepared for an emergency landing. A few minutes later, the pilot asked the flight attendants if everyone was buckled in and ready."All set back here, Captain," came the reply, "except the lawyers are still going around passing out business cards."

Finally..

2008-05-25T13:41:00.003+08:00

waiting for 2 years, finally i starting my driving license... i din hav basic in driving, this make me so nervous to learn.. i am scared when im sitting inside d car.. hopefully i can go through of it.

im so lazy want to drop down my story in this blog, only when i really boring then i will take my time to write it. i have no idea to write in a long sentences. huhu..

yesterday is my first day drive car by myself.. wow... tats great, n i really enjoy to learn it.. i still have 6 hour left, yesterday i learned how to control d stering, i really have fun on it. today i know how to use in gear 1, brek, clutch, handbrek and reavous, others not yet, hahaha..

im still hav 1 month left in this labuan island, after that i need back to COLLEGe for continue my study. hate to back there, but i miss my friends. im now thinking should i stay at hostel o just rent a house when back to college. huh!! think! thinking! think! thinking!

Waste my time

2008-05-10T17:49:00.003+08:00

today i should be take d practical workshop so that i can get d pass L licence.. i hate d akademi memandu!! always make trouble to me.. they did not said tat only 1 person can take d practical workshop.. it suppose by 11am to take, but i need wait until 2 just can check in then check out by 5.. after i have check in, i back home againt.. On the way im going there, the tuitor called me, and said the office already close.. i cant make it.. oh my god!!! ahhh.. i really don have any mood and tired of it.. really waste my time, petrol and my energy to go there.. if near to the house thats ok for me.. but far away from house..

headache!!!!!

2008-04-30T12:30:00.005+08:00

i am really headache with the manager.. no wans like him.. if he do anything wrong with my boss, he only will blame 1 of us although we just listened n do the job that order from him.. konon want to win bos's heart and proud of him.. ceh!!! he is old also wants to jelousy with us.. dono what happen to him.. crasy la!! my boss gave a post of manager to him, and he does not unfit to be a manager, he dono how to do the simple job.. he only knws how to gossip and order ppl to help him.. but the funny think is when one of us not at office, he will gossip about her, n when im not at office, he will gossip about me!! so funny.. Infront of us he becomes a big boss, but infront of boss he becomes a 'kuli'.. i dono wan to pity or laugh with him..

NOTHING SPECIAL

2008-04-25T16:31:00.004+08:00

Today.. boring... nothing to do too.. so I should take advantage to use of time to do my assigment that must send to sch when the day i'm register at the sch by this july.. im really feel boring at here, cause can said im don have anything to do at this office.. they will not find me o asking me for helping them.. i'm feel my brain cell was die, cause im become not active and not using my mind to make o think something new in my life.. luckly im not permenant at here, if not.. i dono wat will happening to me in the future..

Althought i do not have anything to do.. but i still have many new funny things that happening to me, n have various experiense in this company too.. that's a secret.. haha.. but still not challenging for me.. i'm a person who is scad and less speak in english but after im working at here.. i learn to speak althought sometime still discontinued and very shiver.. haha..

Agrh......

2008-04-23T11:40:00.001+08:00

tension.. i have choice not to answer n reply... what for he wans to scold me!! he's not my bf.. also not my fren.. he is the person who always disturbing on me.. i do not care n not reply any comment.. and he always blame n defamation on me.. oh god, i never seen this kind of ppl bfore.. y he don wan to give up... im really hate hate hate hate hate hate him very much.. im far frm him, he also like tat.. after i back to college, my world will bcome more suffer... im not suprised why he never has gf bfore.. huh...

thanks for helping me..

2008-04-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

thanks sab, cz helping me to get 'lecture' for me.. so d manager will stop make trouble to me.. hehehe.. thanks a lot.. u n yus is d only frenz tat i have at here.. so hopefully relationship forever between us.. im not a perfect person, hope u will forgive me if i have do anything wrong tat make u angry.. k....

i do not like to lie with people

2008-04-21T16:52:00.000+08:00

have 1 guy always make troble to me.. i dono y he don want to give up, after i said that i don like him.. until nw he disturd me againt.. what hapen with this guy.. very weird!! hate.. i already said plz don disturd me againt but still the same!! he nvr be a couple bfore! i think no 1 wan to be with him! he's a weird person.. all said he is a great guy! konon!! i dono hw to handle with tis guy..

CANT GO OUT...CANT MAKE FRENZ

2008-04-17T16:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday not going to office,i back to labuan by everning. when i going to office, i dono wat hapen to d manager, y he wan to knw my personal things, tats none of his business.. i juz take one day leave, he ned to angry like tat! im juz practical here for six month n only take 1 day leave! my boss aloud me to go, then y d manager wan to angry!!

i cant go out, can not make frenz...... i miss my family n frenz.. i feel regret y choose here for my practical, d place tat i do not knw anyone.. if i have problem, ned help, i can't find any1 to look for. i feel very sorry with my senior, if im with her, she must be scold by my boss.. nw i cant looking for her, i don wan she get troble bcz of me..

tuesday..tuesday..

2008-04-15T09:36:00.000+08:00

later i will going to kk.. not yet buy d tiket.. haha..nw feel lazy wan to go there..must be tired..now im at office..thinking wat time i wan to go there..tomoro morning i ned to back here, if can i wan to stay there for 2 days, but no wan take care d office..

My life

2008-04-14T10:06:00.000+08:00

so fast, today already monday.. this four month at labuan, i have nathing to do.. if not working, at home.. can not go out for fun.. i feel my life is very bored.. i don't have any friend here( hav 2), bcz here is a new place for me.. im still hav 2 month to go, then i back to kk for continue my study! i dono what should i do by today, at office nathing to do too, but rather at home.. tension.. huh!!